When reality hits.

Yesterday I actually didnt realize how special someone was to me until he found someone else. Although we are still friends or whatever and still have love for eachother I kind of developed a jealous streak. I dont like the fact that he found somebody else who probably isnt as great as me anyways, but the fact of the matter is I have to win him back. Until yesterday before reality hit me that I probably wont find anyone as good as him I played a lot of games that I can honestly say I regret. I fooled around and lied a couple of times and even though we were completely honest all the time I should have sensed that one day this would happen, but I was blind, and now im kind of hurt. Now, all im listening to is the song "Unfaithful" by Rihanna because it reminds me of how I messed up when I shouldnt have. How can a situation start off so good then fall apart so fast? Did I get bored? Or did I see something that distracted me and maybe I thought it would have been better for me but wasnt? Well, you know what they say, "Everything that glitters aint gold", and obviously I thought it would be but it wasnt so now im sitting here lonely and wanting the piece of gold that I had before back, the person I have now cant even compare.